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Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

October 19, 2010 3 comments

I’m not one to give myself compliments, but the one thing I will always stand by is that I am a good friend.  My friends are extremely important to me.  I treat them like family.

  • If you need to talk, I put down what I’m doing.
  • If you have a secret, I’ll keep it safe.
  • If I disagree with a choice you make, I’ll be honest, but I will do my best to stand by and support you and hope that it does work out for the best.
  • If you’re going through a rough time, I’m pouring the wine.
  • If you need to celebrate, we’re going out for beers.

I will never be fake with you.

I put 110% into my friendships, and as long as I feel that you value me just the same, you will never get anything less.

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Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

October 15, 2010 2 comments

I couldn’t think of the right word to use and am still unsure if this really encompasses it all, but I have extremely low self-confidence and I hate it.

I don’t know how to fix it.  The constant guilt I feel and setbacks in life I have experienced have caused me to constantly judge myself.  I compare myself to others or hold resentment towards people in my life that I blame who I believe could’ve been more supportive while I was growing up.

There are so many things I wish I could go back and do over.  I dwell on them and have a hard time moving forward because of that.

Recently my therapist told me that I need to realize that this is causing me to become extremely depressed and because I’m always “looking at life through this half-empty glass”, she wants to refer me for an evaluation for an anti-depressant.  Something I’ve always been afraid of because of a fear of creating dependence.  I told her last week, I would think about it.

I know my girls deserve a mom who can love and take care of herself.  Someone they can look up to and be proud of.  So, at my weekly appointment I will agree that I will do whatever it takes to better myself even if it brings medication into the picture.

I know it can’t change the past, but maybe it will help me take a baby step forward.

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30 Days of Truth

October 15, 2010 1 comment

I read about this on a blog I love and immediately wanted to do it.   I don’t know why I’m so scared of committing to things.  It took me this long, but I’ve finally decided I want to do this for me.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself


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